Personal Reflect

          My personal reflect ? Let me think... There are two reflection that are very important in my life. So, let me talk about my first one. (Based on my true story, no fake)

          When I was 7 years old, I'm a very lazy person. You will never imagine how lazy I used to be. The level of my laziness was really bad. Primary school teacher always called my mother and tell my mother I didn't finish homework on time. Tuition teacher also called my mother for not doing homework and stuff. Until one day, my tuition teacher doesn't want to teach me and my mother sort of begged her to give me another chance. Luckily, the teacher give me the chance and I promised her if after school holiday I don't do my homework, teacher can do anything to me. But after the school holiday, I still don't do my homework. So, the teacher called me to stand on the road and holding a small whiteboard and the whiteboard wrote in mandarin : ' I'm the world most laziest person ever ' and make me stand there for 2 hours. Between that two hours, it was seriously embarrassed . At that moment, I just feel like digging a hole and hide my face inside the hole. From that onwards, I'm scare to embarrassed myself so I always do my homework. This is the first reflection.

          The second reflection was, I'm not so close with my dad due to some reason. I dunno why, I feel so uncomfortable with him last few years ago. But after all these, it changed. I remember when I was 14 years old, I was very rebel on that moment which all the teenager will be rebel and refuse to listen . I always think that my father never understand me enough. There are things like, what he said will be always correct and this is what i hate the most. He never listen to all my explanation and he will just judge by seeing what he had saw. On one day, in the school, teacher taught us about how to express your feeling to your parent. I was like i'm not interested at all and why should I ? My dad don't even express his feeling towards me and i don't to happened also because it will feel very awkward. Out of sudden, school teacher wanted me to pick up a phone call from my mother. When i pick my the phone call, i'm shocked. I stood there for dunno how many seconds. I know, eventhough dengue is a small case but still i get shocked because in my mind, my father was a very strong and he never fall a sick. Mum some more said daddy's platelets was dropping badly. So i rushed to the hospital and visit my dad. When I saw him lying down on the sick bed, he looks so tired and weak. He never look like this before. So on this few days, I keep on sleep in the hospital just to accompany my dad. Until the third day, he suddenly say sorry to me. At that moment, i feel like crying and I dunno why, and he started to explain why he treat me so strictly compare to my sister and my brother. I always think that my dad loves my eldest sister and younger brother instead of me. But all these misunderstanding had already solve. Now i know why, he has higher expectation on me. Of course I understand now. After talking with my dad, I reflected. Cherish what we have and don't regret when its gone. You will never know what happened next. Love your parents more than other things or person, because they are the one who brought you up and give birth on you. Without them, you are nothing. There are always a reason why your parent treat you strictly sometimes. If you dunno why, is okay, time will proves everything as long as you must have patient to wait the answer. I had already waited this until for 3 years. Your parent don't want to tell you the reason because maybe is not the time yet. Once you know it, you will feel release. They are not perfect also. So, just give them sometimes because while we slowly growing up, our parent are also growing with us :)